- this one was to that particular guy: "i smile because i have your friendship. i cry because SHE has your heart. I sigh because i've resigned to fail you. I stand firm, waiting with open arms to catch you when you fall." it's about the fact that we were gonna tell him that she didn't like him, but that never happened... i think he's figured it out now...
- this one was written on the bus, when i was tired, hungry and lonesome for his company when he was sitting right next to me.... "Don't be an idiot. Don't let the water works take over. It's your fault for hoping. Hope is the killer. Stu is wrong. It won't happen. He's just as blind from desire as you are. But you won't let desire hurt you. Do what you've always done. See the mark you want and run... in the opposite direction. Because it cannot happen this way. Not for you. You hope but progress is always met by a headwind. that is too strong to let die. You can't win." i was sad, but i'm better now, and see that the words in that text are self defeating... not helpful at all...
- my friend made a big mistake, and his parents were being harsh, so i wrote this one, but never sent it. "I'd like to take this chance to remind you to live each day to its best. Yesterday is gone and done. Don't regret it, celebrate it, and the opportunity of growth that tomorrow brings. Parents are parents, they are only looking out for your well being. When you have grown out of needing their hand, you'll be dead. Even if they are wrong, pretend they're right" it makes sense, but it's a little strange.
- this time i was REALLY sad, it was lunch, and i was incurably alone. it took 2 messages to write... yeah, i was sad... "I fit into many molds in a squeeze. I can get along with most anyone. I can talk it up with the highs or the lows. I can make jokes with anyone in the student body. But beyond playing nice, or being 'Facebook friends' or 'school-ground acquaintances' i want to find a bosom buddy. Someone who loves me, like i love them. Who is willing to put as much into a friendship as i am. Who wouldn't want that? I want someone who I can call at 1:00 am and they won't think me a stalker. Someone who actually understands me. Someone who i don't feel like a charity friendship. I want what i had with Rachel 8 years ago. but with someone who is around and won't abandon me. I guess i need to get over myself, but i think i deserve this dream. I think everyone does. I wish I could find my bosom friend to make life seem easier." this was no fun to write. but it was what i was thinking... yeah... i have a sad and pathetic mind...
